Out on the street again?

My bosses ran out of money. So I'm out of a job. It was a fun ride. If they ever go public with the site I'll edit this blog and put the url here. I'm proud of it. I'd love to show it off. But it's still hidden behind a NDA.... and I'm on the street again.

Here's the scoop: I am not a kid nor am I entry level. I am no longer "re-entering the work force." Been there. Done that. I am no longer willing to do scut work for shit pay to "prove myself", "get my foot in the door" or whatever. It's not worth the aggro to have some 30-year old who couldn't find his own asshole in a diarrhea shit fit acting like he knows more than me and telling me to do stupid things. If I suggest better methods, I'm insubordinate. If I do the stupid things like I'm told and keep my mouth shut then I get the heat for it when it fucks up. Fuck it, people could keep me believing that I need to prove myself over and fucking over just because I'm "mature" (euphemism for beyond it??) and I'd be stuck at the bottom forever. I have proved myself in spades with my recent employer and if people can't see past the fact that I am a "mature female not your average developer demographic" then nothing I could show them or say would convince them otherwise and all they would want to do would be exploit my ummmm.... cultural disadvantage anyway. I am quite content to pursue my own interests for the next 2-3 months and see how it goes with my soon to be former employer. I enjoyed working for those guys. I wish them every success. Meanwhile, owning my own little fledgling biz (that needs serious attention) suits me and could make us a decent little passive income if we can just get 5 or 6 steady clients. I have a good business partner who knows all the movers and shakers in this little burg where I live. As for my soon to be former employer... If me being gone doesn't shock the founders of that company into kicking some butt, then they're finished anyway, they just blew quite a lot of money for nothing, and they'll wish me well and I can still put their little project on my resume. If they do kick some butt I believe that their idea will take off. I believe their top secret cool idea has great potential but it takes more than a good idea to make money. They have indicated that if they ever get serious capital into their business they will want me back. It's really up to them just how badly they want it to happen. They spent about 1/3 of their startup cash on me. For me that amount would be a CAN'T fail. But I am in an economically depressed part of the USA. and they're not. that's why they internally "outsourced" the work to me. So I can't tell just how much of a subjective financial risk they took and how much they're willing to just blow. The other unknown from where I stand just how much work they are willing or able to do in addition to risking the capital.

I don't think having a bit of ego or slightly higher expectations will hurt me in the overall scheme of things at this point. If my "attitude" keeps me from getting a job in the short term, you can bet your ass it's a job where they want someone they can feed shit to and it would just be a load of aggro. I don't plan to make a show of attitude in my next round of job hunting. But if I smell any shit, I will just say NO. In this life you kind of get what you expect to get. If you act like a submissive puppy, expecting and willing to eat all flavors and textures of shit, then shit you will get. I've had my lifetimes quota. For maybe the second time in my life I didn't get shit from this job. Amazing! I got used to not eating shit and I'm not EVER going go back to eating it.

And I'll end this with a question.... Why do so many people put dominating other people ahead of their employers' mission statement? They take a perfectly capable employee and force feed them shit, and fuck them every way tiltwise such that there is no way that person can be effective at their job. Woopee. They "prove" that this person never should have been hired. They're the alpha dog. Productivity suffers. The victim is the one who gets fired.... or laid off at best. And why are the people who cause this never the ones that get sacked?